So here’s a brief run down of the whole thing - It was so different from my first birth and the Hypnobirthing really did make a difference, my partner, Neil, said I was really zen and serene throughout it all and not panicked at all.
So we were induced due to pregnancy induced hypertension and low Papp A at 40+1. I was already 3cm dilated at 40 weeks so didn’t need a balloon to open cervix so we started with a stretch and sweep on Saturday. We then went into the John Radcliffe hospital on Sunday 7th November at 3pm, they did the usual checks and monitoring and then broke my waters at 4.30pm - we then agreed we’d give it an hour or so to see if anything then happened naturally.
The amazing midwives set me up some aromatherapy to diffuse around the room, and helped us adjust the lights, and get a birth ball. I used all the breathing techniques through the uncomfortable process of waters being broken which kept me really calm. By 6pm nothing was happening so we started on the drip (again using the breathing for the slightly gruesome cannula insertion - to be honest Neil could have done with some here as it made him a little faint 😂).
We decided that we should eat, so we ordered a Lebanese feast on Deliveroo to be delivered to the John Radcliffe entrance. The food arrived really quickly so we started eating, using our LED candles for a romantic little meal, and by 6.45 we’d eaten and I felt like things were starting to happen.
I sat on the birth ball bouncing and listened to the Fear Release track concentrating on my breathing. By 7.20pm I felt like things were intensifying and I needed to crawl onto the bed on all fours, at 7.30pm the midwives came in and I started on the entonox and they confirmed we were now definitely in active labour.
From there things went incredibly quickly. The contractions started to be 5 in 10 within about 15 minutes, and by 7.45pm I said I felt like I needed to push. The midwives were aware I had been really keen to use water (thank you birth plan!) and told me the pool was almost ready, we just needed to move rooms and if I could hold on we’d get in the pool.
Somehow between then and 8.05pm I got into a wheelchair and down the corridor, at 8.07pm we got into the pool and at 8.10pm Ziggy was born into the water and I caught him and lifted him up. It was panic stations at first as the speed meant he wasn’t in the best state, but after everyone rushing in he quickly perked up with just some rubbing and TLC and was back in my arms in minutes - again I managed to keep calm using all the techniques I had learned. By 8.20pm we were tucked up in bed having skin to skin and he had his first feed at 8.30pm.
Overall the things which I think made all the difference from my first birth experience and this one were concentrating on my breathing, staying calm, and having a great but pragmatic birth plan which was really respected and understood by the midwives and which helped me feel in control despite my ideal scenario beforehand definitely NOT being an induction on the delivery suite with continuous monitoring.
I was terrified of giving birth and had delayed starting a family as a result. I’ve ridden horses all my life and my mum (no medical background!) has a theory that horsey girls carry babies well through pregnancy but struggle to deliver them! Lots of my horsey friends have indeed struggled (perhaps due to the strong core and pelvic floor muscles?) and were only too willing to off load their dramatic stories.
Anyway, I read Milli Hill’s Positive Birth book over Christmas (20 weeks) thanks to Amy’s recommendation which really resonated with my science brain and then found a fabulous local hypnobirthing course (sadly I am not local to Amy!). I became excited about giving birth and felt that a home birth was something I’d like, trying to ensure I felt safe, comfortable and could let the oxytocin flow! My husband was very sceptical initially, but once I’d explained the theory he understood my thinking. We joined the local Home Birth Group which was really helpful with practical tips. We even bought a birth pool via the group.
As a first time mum I knew people would have their own opinions on a home birth so we didn’t tell anyone, including grandparents-to-be, so there could be no negativity. We were very woolley over our ‘due date’ too, telling people it was the start of May when it was actually 24th April but I didn’t want hassling if I did go over, which I was sure I would do!
37 weeks came and I still had 10 days at work. Due to some big family birthdays at the end of April, I had been saying to my bump that now we’d reached 'full term' they were free to arrive any time so they could join us at the parties….little did I know she was listening!
On 5th April (my birthday), I woke to find my waters had broken (37+2). I told my husband, rang the hospital and went in to be checked out. We had the day off work anyway and had arranged to go for lunch with my parents which we still did, although we didn’t mention that baby was imminent! We had a fabulous lunch with a glass of fizz and a leisurely spot of shopping.
The hospital asked me to go back in after 24 hours for monitoring and to discuss an induction – the one thing I did not want. Nothing happened over night so I went back in for monitoring and all was as it should be. They discussed the options with me and the slight increased risk of infection due to my waters going but were happy for me to go home for another 24 hours and try get labour going naturally. Challenge accepted!
Home we went, I sent a few last work emails that had been bothering me, we enjoyed two good walks (6 miles in total), had a lovely lunch and dinner, a glass of wine and then made a nest in our sitting room – set up the birth pool, lit candles and the fire, rubbed clary sage oil on my bump, watched a couple of rom coms and had lots of cwtches aka cuddles (husband is Welsh!), before an early night.
Went to bed at 9.30 and slept heavily until being woken by a contraction at 1.15am, definitely the real thing so I moved back down to our nest. I started timing them, they were 5 mins apart, lasting 30 seconds, but this soon moved to 4 mins and 45 seconds, by 2am I had to wake my husband to put my TENS machine on. I alternated between my gym ball and all fours, using the up breathing to help with the surges. The good thing about a planned home birth is that you have a positioning scan at 37 weeks so we knew baby was in the right place and was unlikely to have turned which helped put my mind at ease.
At 3.10 we rang the hospital so they could warn the midwife on call. I think they thought ‘FTM, panicking, she’ll be ages yet’ and told us to ring back when I was in established labour. They did say that if baby was born at home, as waters had been gone over 24 hours before, we’d need to transfer for 12 hours of monitoring.
At 4am surges were a minute long and 2 to 3 minutes apart. We rang back asking for the midwife to come out – mainly as I wanted to use the gas and air that had been delivered!
At 4.20 the midwife on call rang, the one I didn’t particularly like from my ante natal appointments (typical!) and she was 45 minutes away. As my surges were coming thick and fast, we used BRAIN and decided to head into the hospital as it was only 20 mins for us. I actually had my only wobble around the time of this phone call and looking back think it may have been me transitioning as I was getting the urge to push!! I wasn’t sure whether I could actually get in the car at this point so sent my husband on a few errands – feed the horses, let the dog out, fetch my slippers from upstairs etc, so I could get back in control of my breathing. This worked, Adrenalin kicked in and my surges slowed/became more manageable.
5am – arrived at hospital and instantly felt comfortable with our amazing mid wife - Oxytocin started flowing well again. Sadly the pool was in use - had I known this I may have stayed at home but it really didn’t matter in the end!
I didn’t want any examinations so just carried on up breathing, swaying, kneeling on the floor and resting my arms on the bed. It was like an out of body experience, I was so calm and in the zone I barely noticed anything else and just went with my body. My husband fed me jelly babies and gave me drinks between surges. I’ve got my maternity notes (you can request these) and they state how calm and relaxed I am.
6.15 I started using gas & air which helped me breath through the contractions and at 6.45 felt really strong pressure. Asked for an examination, as was thinking I may need more pain relief if not so far along. I was 8cm – immediately felt like I was on the home straight and could cope with just gas and air, and even better the amazing midwife would be there to deliver our baby before the shift change at 8!
7.10 my body started pushing (strangely the same feeling I had at home before we left for hospital!) so I moved on to the bed, remained on all fours and lent over the back. Also decided it was probably a good time to remove my pants!
By 7.45 our baby girl had arrived! I can honestly say that it was not painful, just an unbelievable pressure. I could feel her moving down and bobbing back but knew this was nature working its magic, I trusted my body to birth my baby so didn’t try over push on the contractions. I am sure this, the perineum massage I did from 33 weeks and the reverse pelvic floor exercises I did helped me to avoid any grazes and stitches (still amazed at this!). Blowing my mum's theory out of the water at least!
Had immediate skin to skin and delayed cord clamping. The cord was actually quite short, and waiting to cut the cord was probably the most uncomfortable part of the whole thing. I requested the injection to deliver the placenta, had wanted a natural delivery but really didn’t care by that point!
Sadly mid afternoon our little girl started breathing erratically and was taken round to Special Care Baby Unit. Turns out she had a chest infection and so we stayed in for 5 days. This potential nightmare, I now see as a positive as we established our breastfeeding and got to grips with parenting in the safety of the hospital.
The whole birth was absolutely amazing and I am sure it’s due to the prep we did beforehand. Understanding the science and our birth options empowered me to have a birth I never thought possible. I have told so many people about it and for every dramatic TV style birth story I hear, I proudly tell my story to try reassure other pregnant ladies.
I’m already looking forward to our next baby and although I’m sure it will be very different, I know to trust my body and go with my gut instinct; just because you’re a FTM doesn’t mean you won’t have a fast labour, I am sure if I had stayed at home Pippa would have been born much sooner!
Thought I’d send you an email about Rupert’s entrance into the world. It wasn’t my ideal “birth plan” but it was a very positive experience and I felt very confident going into labour after doing the course with you.
Monday 22nd we were sat having dinner at 9pm and I felt a ‘pop’ and trickle so went to have a look and had straw-coloured discharge. I rang the Bluebell who asked us to go in to double check it was my waters so off we went. They confirmed it was my hind waters that had gone and popped me on the monitor for half an hour to make sure baby was ok. After that they sent us home and said just wait to see if anything progresses and if not we were booked in to come back in the following night at 9pm to be induced. If things progressed naturally I was able to go into bluebell but if not I’d have to be on Swan ward to be induced. We went home and got some rest and I spent all of Tuesday bouncing on my ball, walking, watching light-hearted TV but to no avail so at 9pm we made our way to Swan Ward. When we got to the ward they were having a really busy evening and the poor head midwife was running around like a headless chicken. There were 5 other women on the ward being induced and I didn’t get my pessary put in until midnight after she examined me and said I’d be re-examined in 24 hours time. Ant was allowed to stay on the ward with me which I was really grateful for. We spent the first couple of hours snoozing and snacking. At about 3.30am I started to get some tightenings coming round from my back into my belly I made sure I kept active and moved around the bed, on top of the bed etc. By 4am they were getting closer together and getting quite painful (I was only on paracetamol at this point) so I popped my tens machine on, started counting the contractions with an app I’d downloaded and called the midwife to ask for some more pain relief. I was only allowed codeine and that would of been at 6am with some more paracetamol. The pain really started to ramp up and I found being on all fours on the bed rocking my hips from side to side with the breathing techniques helped but I kept wanting to change position and keep moving. I called the midwife another couple of times to say the contractions were getting closer and I was in quite a bit of pain so she got me some codeine.
At 5am I went to the toilet and had my bloody show, I told the midwife who tried to put me on the monitor for 10 minutes which I just spent the whole time levitating off the bed! Then all of a sudden I got an urge to push which I told her about so she examined me and said “oh his heads right there, you’re 7cm dilated!” Then it all went a bit fast as they grabbed a wheelchair in for me and whizzed me round to labour ward which I spent the whole time just with the massive urge to push. Once in the room on labour ward as I got off the wheelchair to get on the bed my fore waters went which was a bit of relief. The back of the bed was upright so I leant forward over it as this was a position I knew I wanted to be in. They gave me gas and air which was a massive help and Ant was great at encouraging me to drink lucozade in between contractions and breathe some normal air in. We got into the labour ward room at 5.26am and Rupert was born at 6.06am. I was extremely lucky with my midwife who delivered him as she just took a step back and didn’t intervene - she was actually brilliant and I couldn’t of asked for anyone better. She passed me him between my legs, Ant got to cut the cord and we had skin-to-skin straight away. The ward was so busy it was just my midwife left to deal with stitching me up whilst I held Rupert and she encouraged me to just give breastfeeding a go and see what happened. He latched straight away and fed for about 20 minutes and has been great at feeding since. I had a second degree tear but the midwife said this was purely due to the speed he came as I was excellent at breathing him out and not pushing him out.
So a total of 6 hours and 6 minutes between the pessary going in and Rupert making his entrance into the world 💙. The biggest sting about the birth was the room I gave birth in had a birthing pool in it 😫😂!
So even though I didn’t get to be in the Bluebell and I didn’t get the waterbirth I would of liked I had a very positive experience. I only used paracetamol and gas and air and had an active labour which were in my birth preferences. And I could not of faulted the care of the midwives and nurses during our stay. We were discharged at 6pm that evening so weren’t even in hospital for 24 hours.
Sorry it’s a long-winded email but just wanted to let you know how it went and honestly I felt so well informed about what was happening because of doing the course with you so thank you for all your help!
Still in our newborn bubble loving life 💙